In Another. Four Years.

Leap Year 2012

So we wont see February 29th for another 4-years. I don't personally know anyone with a birthday on this day nor do I remember anything significant taking place on a Leap Year. Today I'm going to make it important.

I read a suggestion online that said we ought to do something rare on this day. So I did. I flirted back with someone who I believe may have an eye for me. What's so rare about this?

I have a whole lot of pride when it comes to interacting with men. Sometimes I feel justified for being "this" way. Others, I feel like I should put pride aside, but letting go of my pride (regarding men) is "something" I rarely do.

The gentleman that I sent a flirtatious signal to doesn't know much about me. I'm preparing to let my hair down in the relationship department in the near future. I have no idea exactly when or with whom. Call it a "women's intuition" because I'm no psychic.

When Leap Year happens again in 2016, I'll almost be 40-years old. Then what? Well, I'm about to make a confession...

I hope to be sharing life in LOVE with my soul mate. It's such a jungle in the dating scene and yes I 'll go further by stating, that we all need somebody. Not just anybody though. I truly believe there's "someone for everyone."
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                        Wednesday - February 29, 2012

Dear Future Hubby of Mine,

I'm sorry we may be a little out of control. We don't really know what it's like having a man in charge of our family. For a long time I've been calling all the shots and it took me a longer while to admit, that I wouldn't find proper balance as a woman of the house in your complete absence.

I've been waiting for you. I knew you'd find me in due time. I'm confident that you not only desire me above any other woman, but you also need me and have no shame admitting so. I just LOVE you so much all ready!!!

The little girl inside of me has been yearning for her daddy all my life. It also doesn't hurt having a father figure present, that my daughters can find guidance and protection from on a daily basis. I told my girls that we ought to enjoy the time in our household where no man exists because it's going take some adapting once you take the lead.

I know that we'll experience challenges together, but I promise to fight with respect, loyalty, strength, patience, kindness and LOVE to keep our union sacred. More importantly, I've rid myself of fear about us and I've been practicing on my own to be the best wife I'm capable of being. I'm so excited about our future together.

P.S.  It's been a long time coming, but everything great is done in GODs time and I will accept each day FAITHfully knowing "this" to be true!

With unconditional LOVE, PRAYER & SUPPORT,















Your Mrs. :*

Okay. Let's Go!!!

Oh my goodness. Seems it's another one of these days where I'm a little too unfocused and unable to describe how I'm feeling in a manner, that I feel makes sense. Yet, I'm thinking about a whole lot of "things" at "this" moment...

One step at a time.

My Little Niece: Fantasia!

Yesterday, my children and I took my niece home to her new apartment. I can hardly believe that she'll be 20-years old in April. My late brother's first born is all grown up and stepping out into the world on her own.

I remember being 13-years old when I found out that I had become an aunt. It was so exciting for our family anticipating the arrival of my mother's first grandchild. I learned a whole lot about parenting having my niece around.

She was like a first child to me. A few of my friends were teen parents and shamefully, I wanted to be one. So when she was born I felt like I had my own little baby. I too, shared similar responsibilities caring for my niece as a mother would by feeding her, changing diapers, bathing, dressing, teaching some of her first lessons, amongst other miscellaneous parental duties.  

I will admit, that I've had some difficulty adjusting to her adulthood. She laughs at me because we both know that I still treat her like she's my eldest daughter's age sometimes. I'm just a bit over protective of her and I want to maintain the loving respect between us. No matter how much older she gets I'll still be her elder and want to help her make righteous decisions for her life.

I am proud of her and I LOVE her very much!!!

Well Spent. Time Solo.

I took myself on an afternoon date to the movies today. It's been a while since I've gone to see a flick by myself. The last movie I saw was with my eldest daughter.

Tyler Perry's new film "Good Deeds" is excellent! His talent is anointed and remarkably unquestionable. Not only did he write the screenplay, but he directed and starred in the leading role as Wesley Deeds. His character portrayal was very attractive and seemed quite natural.  

I've experienced some feelings of guilt about being a parent and how I spend my time when my daughters aren't with me. The more mature I'm becoming; the more I realize, that my children can only do so much with me and when time permits I should work on separating myself better as an individual. After all, I am a single full-time parent with desires of my own.

I am human. I am a woman. I am an individual.

Thursday: Thinking...

Dreaming. Imagining. Fantasizing.

Wednesday. Wins.

I thought that I'd be more productive "this" week. I have taken care of a few "things," but I had so much more in mind to accomplish. My willpower to push beyond laziness today has been absent.

It must be my diet. I'm not on any diet, but perhaps I should pay closer attention to "it" because I've been experiencing sluggishness and I don't like "it." Lack of focused physical activity is also "something" I'm guilty of.

I better get "it" together. I heard a commercial on the radio today about getting in shape for the Summer. If I start now then I know I'll see/feel positive results by then. What am I waiting on?

Getting in shape for me personally, isn't just about my physique. My goal is to work from within out, which is not a simple workout. Retraining/improving the ways that I think/function will help me to create a successful fitness agenda.

I'm certain, that once I do get on a physical fitness program I'll be unstoppable. Just as I am with posting my blog. Etched in words so I can now use "this" to take action.

First Try. Not Bad.

We had guests join us for dinner on Sunday evening. I wanted to serve a full course meal with an appetizer and all, but "things" didn't go as planned. My friend and her daughter did leave our place with a full stomach anyhow.

The appetizer never got served. I wasn't aware that my friend's daughter doesn't like shrimp, which ended up being the main entree because the round tip beef roast was no where near well done when everyone wanted to eat. The mashed potatoes, roasted brussel sprouts and cornbread, turned out the best and these side dishes are what saved the night. Shaking my head.

I did get to send some slices of the roast home with my friend. It was completely done minutes after we all ate. My eldest daughter tasted a few pieces and told me that it was very good. Go me! I am shocked because I usually get a "good" or an "okay" from her about the cuisines that I make. I try.

At around the age of 17-years old I made the decision to stop eating meat. Not only red meat, but poultry and seafood as well. I was successful until I became pregnant with my eldest when I was 19-years old. My prenatal care physician recommended that I include meat within my diet so I welcomed seafood and poultry back into my life.

To this day, still no red meat. Only one voluntary encounter with a beef rib on the fourth of July a couple of years ago because I was drawn in by the barbecue scent while it was cooking on the grill. I also wanted to see how my body would react since I hadn't eaten any beef for so many years. No negative effect, but I haven't craved for anything beef since that very rare moment.

I have on more than one occasion, accidentally ingested pork since giving up meat. Accidental ingestion how, right? Well, both instances happened when I dined out. Once from a fast food chain and again at a Jamaican Restaurant. I only knew after consuming the food I had ordered. My digestive system was not happy with what I ate and I'm convinced "it" contained pork.

Recently, I've been purchasing beef to cook for my daughters. Much of their diet at home has consisted of poultry and seafood since they grew old enough to chew solid food. I made the decision long ago, that I wouldn't cook what I don't eat. Now that my eldest is a teenager she's become very vocal about her preferences. She loves steak and says, that I always cook chicken.

She's enjoyed the steaks I've been practicing with. I decided to be bold and slow-bake a round tip beef roast for the first time this past Sunday. I followed a recipe that I found on the Internet and began early preparations for "it" on Saturday evening.

I was so disappointed that it wasn't ready for Sunday dinner because I had undercooked it on Saturday night. It needed more than reheating to complete Sunday's meal so I felt like I had failed on "this" first attempt. I'll need a bit more experience cooking different cuts and types of meats to increase my confidence with doing so.

My friend hasn't said anything about the roast yet. I took a plate to my mother yesterday and she shared some with my niece. They said it tasted good and tender...