Revisited. Gladly!

Oh, my beautiful brussells sprouts! Overcooked them once again. They're still tasty and I'm going to eat each one, mushy and all. I'll just try to cook them properly next time...

I spoke with my sister Tonia, today. We had a deep conversation and she triggerred something within me. She needs the confident older sister who's about her business to stop playing. Yes, that older sister is me. My sister can use some companionship and a shoulder to lean on and I'm incapable of making that happen for her immediately. Personally, I feel that it's a shame.

Am I waiting on Prince Charming or what? I mean seriously. I'm holding onto my household by a very thin thread and I admit, I'm not putting my best foot forth in the right areas like I know "I can." I'm so over being a big baby about all things. Not being able to be there for my sister like I really wish I could doesn't settle easily with me.

Then, my next younger sister Tiffany just gave birth to her second baby girl and where am I? Too complacent with my position in life and not really seeing how selfish I've been. Now, I'm not in any way coming down on myself too harshly. Real is real and this reality has to change for the better.

I have sisters. We didn't have to be raised together to share a common bond. We're all women and mothers. None of us are married. How okay is "that" really?

What really matters is, that we have a support group with eachother. I'm the eldest and I want them to be able to reach out to me without hesitance. I don't want them thinking about my struggle and going "it" alone because of.

Creating a strong family foundation is a lifelong dream that I have. It seems that I've lost track with my pursuit of, until I spoke with my sister today. It's so not over!

I thought that I was over brussells sprouts. I hadn't had any since my childhood and back then, I thought they were the most disgusting vegetable grown. My children didn't even know what they were until recently because I've never brought them into our home. It was when my aunt brought them prepared properly to our family Thanksgiving dinner this year, that I was reminded nothing, but GOD is absolute.

I will keep pushing, fight harder, and try without resistance. I need me and so does my family. Word!!!