At first, I thought being without my children on such a significant holiday would feel lonely. I couldn't have been anymore wrong. My first Christmas solo since becoming a parent was a relaxing. Knowing that my daughters were with their other halves was a delightful feeling. They were safe and surrounded by family.
Isn't that what the holiday season's about? Right.
I have yet to plan spending an "adult-only" holiday with my friends. Of course I could've made arrangements to do so long ago, but my guilty conscious about leaving my children behind has always bothered me. I'm sure they would've been fine with my family if I had gone out on such occasion.
There is something refreshing about my daughters being in the care of their dads. I understand what's out of my control and I'm cool with "it." I cannot tell these men what to do or how to be when my daughters are with them. They're their babies too and because the time spent is so limited, I think they all appreciate their moments together. For my girls and I, it's break from one-another that's so necessary.
I don't get many presents on Christmas nor do I pass many out. The children (mine, friends/family) are usually who we shop for. When the budget allows, I'll go the extra mile to surprise others.
Guess who gets to sleep in on Christmas Day? Yes, me!
I'm so accustomed to going to bed late on Christmas Eve due to last minute Santa set-ups and such (laughing out loud). Sleeping in is a present alone. One that I cannot wait to take complete advantage of. Guilt-free because my daughters will be enjoying their time with their daddy's!
I thank GOD!!! :D
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