No Theme. For April.

I'm returning back to my randomness effective now. Part of me wants to abandon ship here... Again. My other parts say keep moving forward without any unnecessary pressure, but don't leave "this" precious blog to just sit unattended to. When I log into my blog sometimes I wonder how I allowed an entire year to pass without posting one single entry during the year of 2013.

I mean, for me to go from posting daily on weekdays, to writing absolutely nothing for a consistent 365 days doesn't really make clear sense. Of course, the bottom line is I just didn't want to, but how much do I have on my agenda daily, "that" I just don't want to do, yet "it" still has to get done? Let's just say "it" is much.

So, "I can" push beyond the lack of motivation I'm feeling today. "It" is simply, just a moment in time. One little moment which will pass. If I'm blessed to return here tomorrow, I'll be glad "that" I did "this." I know myself and tonight I'm encouraging myself to proceed further with "this" blog of mine.

About Time! To Revisit.

Before I begin, I'm not allowing myself to think about how long it's been since I posted here. I'm here to remind myself what a great space I've created to organize my thoughts and to express them in the most positive way I'm capable of. In short, I need to be present here.

Right now!

So here I am. Each of my senses are in full tact with my determination to push past procrastination and to show up where I plan to. Baby steps work well and "this" particular moment is only a small fraction of my time today.

Everyday, actually!

I'm renaming today to Timely Tuesday. "This" will be my personal day of true structure. I wasn't born to do 7-days of structure and "that" is just a fact.

With each breath, through every passing moment, while I can I shall and gladly! Blessed beyond measure. I truly am.

I thank you LORD!!!

Be Responsible. It Helps.

It's funny that my focus today is about responsibility when I ran out of gas last night...

I didn't plan on getting out last night, but I did once again and I don't regret a thing! My gas light had been on earlier in the day and I knew that I had just enough in the tank to wait until morning. Now when I decided to go out I was in a hurry (as usual) and so excited to get to the destination that I completly disregarded taking care of business beforehand.

Thank GOD that I persuaded my GODsister to come out with me at the last minute. I almost went solo, but something kept telling me not to go it alone. So glad that I listened. As long as I waited for her to get ready, I could've gotten the gas in the meantime.

Okay, I'm guilty. I've run out of gas with every vehicle I've owned. Each time, I had money on me to purchase gas. I push beyond the limit with my pursuit of "not being so late," that I've ended up being even later or stuck in the middle of traffic with a dead car afterwards. You'd think I would've learned my lesson by now...

Well, I have (kind of). I have learned some valuable lessons from this experience. I'll never own and drive a vehicle without AAA roadside coverage. I consider beforehand how I'll get help if I do run out of gas, which keeps me from panicking when it happens. When I'm out late at night, if the gas is low I usually don't travel a far enough distance to be concerned with it.

Fortunately, I listened to that little voice instructing me to bring my GODsister out with me. I just might've made the same decision to just get there and worry about it later. This is a pattern that I have to monitor carefully in my life. Yes, procrastination is what we call this. Why do it?

I ask myself this all the time. I am improving in many areas, but in the area of safety and simple common sense I need some fine tuning. The only reason that I'm not embarrassed by my actions is because I knew subconsciously that it was highly likely to happen. I felt prepared enough to handle the circumstance.

Am I really giving myself credit for this? Self-check.