He Is. Worth It.

I haven't blogged in over a month, but I just found out about the passing of Michael Clark Duncan, which is what brought me here at "this" very moment. I am saddened for his fiancee, Omarosa Manigault and his family because I know he was a good man. His presence in hollywood and more importantly, in reality will be missed greatly.

He had just finished wrapping up filming for "The Green Mile" when I had the opportunity to spend some friendly time with him. I'll never forget him showing me the trailer for it. At the time, he was preparing to move out of Hawthorne, California.

I first met him when I was pregnant with my first daughter. He used to make me laugh because he said, that he was afraid of pregnant women. More than a gentleman, this man had a big heart and for those who misjudged his character based upon how big of a guy he was in size, surely missed out on knowing a sweet soul.

He and I reconnected after my daughter was born. She had to be about 8 or 9 months old then. I just wasn't the woman for him. He was man enough to ask me my true feelings about us dating and even though I was hesitant with my response, we both knew, that the chemistry wasn't there. No time wasted. He kept it moving and so did I.

I did run into him at the gym a few years later and he was with a woman. He spoke and introduced her as his girlfriend. That was the size of "that."

I joke with my eldest daughter, that he could've been her stepfather if only I had acted right. All jokes aside, I wasn't woman enough for him and "I can" admit "it." I'll always appreciate his honesty and I now refer back to the patience he exercised with me.

When I learned that he and Omarosa were engaged, I was surprised, but happy for them both. I don't really know why I was surprised because I believe they each deserved to share love with one another. They appeared blissfully in love when I saw their interview on "The Monique Show," that used to air on BET.

GOD BLESS Michael Clark Duncan and may his soul rest peacefully.

Reverend Manigault,

I love you woman and what you stand for. Forget all the negativity that the media has said, says and any bad they'll attempt to spread now. Aside from my own observations watching you on Reality TV, your engagement to Michael Clark Duncan showed me how phenomenal you are.

You are such a strong woman with character and integrity. Many women, particularly black women ought to take some notes from you. I have.

Stand strong as I know you will. Regular and common folks like myself, admire you. Remember the poet, Joshua Bennett who recited "10 Things I Wanna Say to a Black Woman" after Monique interviewed you and Michael? I feel like you got that. Not just in comprehension, but actually in your relationship.

I believe it's because you loved yourself before he got to you. I don't remember which show, but I recall seeing your mother making a small appearance and I must say, what great direction you stem from. GOD bless you both.

Of every opportunity and so many directions you could've taken your acting career into, you chose to study theology. Wow! A woman of GOD. No one can touch that. We know that! I don't have to know you to be proud and happy for your accomplishments.

I feel a piece of your pain and sister in CHRIST, I'm sorry for your sorrow. Michael was so fortunate to have found you and to be embraced by your love. When I heard of his passing on KJLH after getting off from work this evening, I went online to verify the truth.

"This" is my digital embrace to you. The best I can offer in condolence is some of my time. I pray peace upon you and for you to be covered with an unbreakable shield against all evil.

Sincerely,

1 Fan :)

Hearing Clearly. Inner Reveal.

Last Monday I had my ears cleaned. More than "that," I was exposed to a brand new experience. One I'll never forget, but surely seek again.

At this year's KJLHs Women's Health forum I picked up a brochure from "The Annointed Touch."  After reading the details in the pamphlet I felt like it was "something" I wanted to try at least once. I'm glad I did.

A few years ago during a physical examination the doctor said she saw heavy wax inside each of my ears. She prescribed medicated ear drops to help soften the wax build up and advised, that I come back to the clinic in 2 days. When I returned for my follow-up appointment a nurse irrigated each ear using a needle-less syringe filled with a mixed solution made of water and peroxide.

It was an uncomfortable procedure. I've never had any liquid forced inside my ears before. The nurse warned me that I might feel dizzy afterwards due to the stimulation of my inner ear. She was exact. I remember feeling very dizzy and having to lay down for a few minutes before I could leave the room.

I did notice an improvement to my hearing after that last appointment. What's funny is I thought, that I'd been hearing fine all of the time. I just don't want to go through "that" medical process again. My choice. Thank GOD!!!

My ears were clogged with wax for a long while up until last week. I had been thinking about other alternatives rather than having my ears irrigated again. I could actually feel the build up inside each ear and knew "it" was affecting my normal hearing.

While searching for "something" at home a few weeks ago the brochure (mentioned above) fell to my feet. I picked it up and decided I'd research further at that moment. I left a message with "The Annointed Touch" right there and then.

Since meeting Linda, I no longer feel the extra weight I've been feeling in between my ears. I know that it's not all gone, but I feel relief. The Ear Coning process that I experienced was quite relaxing and so needed. I'm telling my family and friends about it too.

As with all "things" be sure to seek a trusted practitioner. Not everything is for everyone and not everyone is skilled at everything. So find someone anointed!!!

Enjoying Mine. Own Independence.

What an awesome Independence Day "this" is?! Yes. My children are where they want to be and I'm relaxing comfortably within the space I prefer to lounge at most, which I gratefully know as home. I have the entire day to myself.

I do well alone. Although, I've had to admit sharing time with loved ones is "something" I yearn for quite often. There's no better time like a good time spent with the people whom we admire and cherish when all of our feelings are genuinely mutual.

Lately, I've been reminding myself, that it's okay to choose me. I'm like the greatest friend and relative. Seriously, I am. Laughing out loud. I do find, that I'm more willing "to do" for others than for myself on many occasions.

I'm maturing all around gradually. Facing myself, challenging myself and being patient with the woman I am is part of the development, that I need to fulfill my divine purpose. I accept "it" all joyfully.

"I can" do whatever I want when I want to (within personal reasoning). I THANK GOD for "it." Happy Independence Day on this beautiful Wednesday to me!!!

Middle School. Moving On.

I am ever so proud of my children. My youngest completed kindergarten last week and today my eldest graduates from junior high school. They're growing up. Wow!

My eldest and her friend won their 8th grade talent show. She sang and her friend rapped during their performance of a song titled, "I made it" by YG featuring Tanea. I appreciate my shout out and also, how they recognized their dads. Watch and listen for the following lyrics...

"I made it, I graduated. I finally made it mama. I did it all for you. My daddy I got you even if you say I don't got to, cause you my daddy for sure."

I feel so special, that my daughter recognizes my efforts as her mother. She and I are so much closer than I was with my mother when I was 14. I was nearly parenting myself calling shots in my life as a teenage runaway.

GOD IS AWESOME!!! Yes, HE IS. THANK YOU LORD for saving me and mine.

This moment in time holds so much significance for me personally. Partly, because I'm getting ready to witness my eldest succeed in high school. "I can" hardly wait for homecoming, prom, and all the "things" that occur in high school. All that I didn't accomplish in high school, my daughters most certainly will and I have no doubt about "it."

A letter to my children:

Dear Beautiful Daughters of Mine,

I am so grateful being your mommy. I'll never know why GOD chose me for you and you two for me. It's something I wont ever question because you two are my gifts from heaven and I wouldn't trade either of you in for anything else. You both are so very special. Spiritually touched and protected by our heavenly father.

I owe you both. I owe you my best. Mommy has been coasting along and a little depressed about how cold "this" world is. I realize, that I haven't been functioning at my best. Simply getting by only. For this, I'm sorry. I'm sorry I have yet to try my hardest personally and more importantly as your mother.

We do well. Always have, but I'll say it's time that our little family does great. As the head of our family it is my lead, that you both have as an example. Mommy has work to do and because of you two I'll get the jobs done. This is my promise in writing to you both. It gets better from here babies!

I only ask, that you two continue as you have being successful students and the respectful girls, that I gladly know as my daughters. You both are awesome. In your own individual ways. I LOVE you just as you are and I'm raising you both to know your individual worth as children of the MOST HIGH.

Get ready girls. We're about to go places, that once seemed impossible. We're going to do things, that we never thought we'd get the opportunity to. Let us continue to love one another unconditionally as we journey through life's adventures together. I LOVE YOU BOTH SO VERY MUCH!!!

With unconditional LOVE & SUPPORT,

Mommy

GODfamily. Special Effects.

I'm really glad to see my BFF putting her make-up artist skills to use! 

A Well While. Wednesday!

I deserve to enjoy days like "this." Yes I do. YES I DO!!!

All women do. ;)

A Friendly Tuesday.

Have I mentioned how much I LOVE the beach? 

My youngest daughter has a really great friend at her school who she plays well with. I first met her mother on Halloween at our daughters school last year. We see each other almost every morning when we drop our daughters off for school.

So pleasant. :)

A few weeks ago she and I exchanged numbers. This morning we enjoyed coffee at the park. It felt great taking some time to bond as women. Black women not judging or hating on one another, while conversing courteously. We have similar perspectives about many "things" and share some relatable experiences.


So interesting. So cool. 8)

She lives near the beach and said we should go. I agreed. We stayed until it was time to pick our daughters up from school. Then took our daughters to share ice cream together.
                                            
                                            So relaxing. So nice. So fun. :D 

You May. Not Know.

I decided last week, that I will no longer be posting here daily. The reason is because I have a whole lot of other "things" that I'd like to blog about and since "this" is my original blog it's special to me. It's sacred!!!

It's a delightful space here, isn't it? I plan to keep "it" as positively welcome as it is. I desire for ANYBODY to read my blog and I'm content knowing, that what I've shared is user friendly for all.

What I didn't want to happen has. I never wanted "this" blog to feel like work nor did I want to feel like I'm forcing myself "to do" it. I've got to allow some personal space in order to remain consistent and receptive to how "it" naturally flows.

So, I'm not projecting any set schedule for my blog posts from this day forward. Unnecessarily, I've placed pressure on myself with doing so. I want to continue enjoying the time I spend here so I'm making some necessary changes beginning today!

Relaxing In. What's Righteous.

 GOD gifted me with great common sense and an intuitive spirit to make honorable decisions. 

Simply deciding now, that "I can" do so!

I Beat. My Child.

Memorial Day 2012: I gave her an old school whipping on a classic board game. I am professing myself as the official Checker Queen in our family. Queen me please is what I had to keep telling her!!!

Experiencing. Technical Difficulties.

Only. Two Words.

Busy Bee!             

Yesterday: I Slept.

I now refuse to blog from my phone unless I must. On yesterday the Internet was still out of service in our home and I really didn't want to use anyone else's. So I didn't. Tomorrow I'll be back at my "Blogging Station." THANK GOD!!!

Yay!!! Monday.

Oops. I suppose my urgency with tending to my precious blog caused me to post "it" prematurely (blank). I don't think anyone (other than me) noticed or will notice. On to my story...

Last week, I was a little bothered with having to write my blog from my phone. Mostly, because from my phone I'm unable to attach images from its photo library. I do have a smart phone and I expected "things" to sync accordingly.

I should probably send feedback to the website about "this" glitch since the site has been updated recently. I wonder if it's a software issue or if it's simply, that I only have limited access to all the available features on the website -blogging from my phone... Whatever "it" is I'm just happy to be somewhere I am comfortable with a keyboard where "I can" utilize my typing skills properly!

Some days I have a whole lot to say. Being unable to share my thoughts/feelings the way that I want to can feel a bit like torture. Not just here though. In many arenas I voluntarily chose not to express my feelings for several reasons.

Don't we just LOVE the freedom to choose? I sure do! So I've chosen to take advantage of "this" moment, while I have access to my GODsister's laptop. Yes. I am getting "it" in the way I want and "it" feels so good!

Yay!!! Monday.

Must. Upgrade.

Every "thing."

I'll Just. Do "this."

Blog from my phone once again... Without a story. No image.

Blogging From Phone.

I don't like "it." No complaints. "This" will just have to change A.S.A.P!!!

No Internet. At Home.

So... No story today. Merely a simple post. I was here.

Monday: Mellow.

Last year, my children and I discovered a blackberry tree a few blocks from where we live. None of us had ever seen one before and I was shocked to happen upon one in my local neighborhood. We picked a few berries from the tree on "that" occasion and sampled them after we cleaned them at home. They were so tasty. So much so, that I began purchasing blackberries from the grocery store on a regular basis since then.

What's my problem, right? Exactly. Why would I spend money on blackberries when I know where "I can" pick them for free? Exactly.


The blackberries pictured in each container are from two different places. The berries in the top tray are store bought. They're almost a week old, very ripe, and unusually plump. The smaller tupperware contains blackberries that my youngest daughter and I picked from the tree today. I know the better pick, but I'm going to eat each berry. Yes, all. No wasting!

When we finally did return to the tree a few months after our discovery "it" was completely bare. There wasn't one leaf only empty branches. I could've done some research to learn when blackberries are in season and when they ripen, but I still haven't.


However, I have driven by the blackberry tree periodically to check for growing leaves and any sign of blackberries. Guess what? Yes, the tree is full of beautiful green leaves and pretty little blackberries. Okay, so they might be raspberries. Who cares which? Not me because I like each.

What matters to me more is that I have access to fresh fruit from it's natural source. Not only that, berries seem to cost more than other fruits at markets. I feel so privileged having found "this" tree. I promise to visit "it" more and to help make sure it's fruits don't waste.

One More! Weekend.

Being 13.

My BIG girl.

Happy (early) Birthday to my beautiful daughter!!!

I am SO very proud of you and LOVE U so mucH banana...lol!!!

Thursday Thrills!

I

AM

Me.

My LOVEly! Blogging Station.

"This" is where I prefer to write my blog.

"It" doesn't always happen here though.

Thinking Through. "This" Tuesday.

There are some personal "things" I need to handle A.S.A.P. I've been brainstorming and mentally planning. Thinking outside of my head today. I'll need a notepad and a pen to outline my thoughts.

Realizing/Appreciating where I've been. Accepting/Understanding where I'm at. Preparing/Planning for where I'll go next! 

Getting "It." Done.

I just thought I would check to see if I could get online after being booted off abruptly last Friday evening. Remember (I didn't feel like dealing with) the wireless router issue? I suppose if had just taken care of the matter on that morning we wouldn't have gone without Internet access in our home over the weekend. No big deal, right? Right. I don't (usually) blog on weekends.

Unnecessarily, I have been under a little stress "this" past weekend. It's because I've been thinking about where I'm going complete my blog during the week if I don't have access to the Internet at home. "I can" go to the library or to one of my friends places and get it done there, but...

I'd really rather blog within the comfortable space of my choosing when I'm triggered "to do" it. However, I'll do whatever (within reason always) "it" takes to prevent any interruptions with posting each day "this" week. Let's get ready.

Happy Monday to me and you!!! ;)

Friday: Last "thing."

I'm strengthened by my friend's strength. She had so many "things to do" with the preparations for honoring her daughter Destoney's life in a memorable and heartfelt manner. Well done Alisa.

We wrote birthday/graduation messages on balloons and released them into the beautiful blue sky for a precious Angel.

"This" beautiful tree underneath GODs wonderful glow sits over her burial site.

THANK YOU JESUS!!!

Friday: First Thing.

Due to yesterday's inconvenience with getting my blog posted I've decided to handle my business now. I have yet to call the wireless router company who's responsible for our device. Yes, I am procrastinating getting "that" done because I just don't feel like dealing with it at "this" moment. There are more important "things" on my agenda for today.

Today, I'll be going to celebrate with Destoney's family and friends for her birthday today. UEI is also honoring her as a graduate at her burial ceremony today. It IS a gift within itself, that her spirit is flying free. Not one "thing" in "this" entire world, that anyone could've have given to her today can compare to the ultimate present she has resting with JESUS. Amen.

Since "it" took nearly an hour troubleshooting with our Internet provider on yesterday I have no interest in dealing with the situation at all today. We can access the world-wide-web from our desktop in the meanwhile. I wont wait too long because I am still being charged for wireless services.

Hopefully, I'll have a change of heart and just take care of "this" faulty wireless Internet connection before the day ends. I THANK GOD for my liberty with decision-making and having a mind, that does not stress over small "things." Keeping "it" moving continuously!!!

Seizing the Moment.

While I'm currently sitting on hold with my Internet provider I figure "it" best to blog now. The technical difficulties that we're now we're facing with our home computer has delayed my ability "to do" so before now. Shaking my head with frowned eyebrows...

The representative has concluded, that the issue is with the wireless router. I was transferred to a representative for that company and I just told him I'd call back because I need to finish what I'm doing online first. Once I post "this" blog I'll call back and hopefully get the problem completely resolved.

Now, that I have entered my thoughts for the day I don't feel so inconvenienced. I feel my attitude adjusting and "I can" be much more courteous to the next representative who attempts to help me from "this" point. Moving along.

He Asked. I Answered.

Last night, when I got out of the vehicle I walked into the neighborhood market and the security guard standing out front asked me "what's my bodyguard's name?" I replied "GOD."

He followed me into the store. I noticed, that he had a puzzled expression on his face. As I paid for my items he said "what did you say your bodyguard's name is?" I again, replied "GOD." 

He said, "that's what you named your dog?" My dog was in the car. His question was what's my bodyguard's name. Not what's my dog's name, which is exactly what I said to him. We laughed. 

Simple miscommunication, right? No. I know who my bodyguard is!!! ;)

I Am. Quite Skilled.

I can't remember the last time I helped a man with his tie. Some "things" we just don't forget how "to do" ever. Like riding a bike, swimming and yes, tying shoestrings or ties.

Last week, my youngest daughter participated in silly themes week at her school. We missed Monday's crazy hat day because she didn't give me the notice until Tuesday morning. For crazy tie day I figured we'd have to be creative because not one tie exists in our home, but I found a belt which worked out just as well.

After just two attempts, I tied that tie. No practice needed. One simple do-over and "it" was done!

Yes We. Were There.

We enjoyed our free ride on the new MTA Expo line on Saturday.

We rode the train to/from KJLHs 12th Annual Women's Health Forum.

We saw sweet and pretty air personality Adai Lamar!

So Many. Hearts Touched.

By her LOVE. Resting peacefully with JESUS sweet Angel Destoney. One of GODs gifts.

I'm Quoting. A Scripture.

The HOLY BIBLE says:

"This is the day which the LORD hath made; we will rejoice and be glad in it." -Psalm 118:24

Power Puffs. Princess Play.

Three little princesses. 

GODs Greatness. No Charge.

I'm amazed at just how quickly the little caterpillar (found by my GODnephew last week) has morphed into a beautiful butterfly. My GODsister posted a picture of "it" on Facebook yesterday. I went to see the miraculous little "thing" this morning.

They've named the butterfly "Butterfree." We all are so honored being able to witness one of GODs creatures transform from a garden bug into an insect with flying wings. The last time I remember seeing "something" like "this" was during my grade school years for a classroom project.

At an old job I did have a coworker who ordered caterpillars from a website online. She was very into nature and found it so fascinating, that she would simply purchase (readily available) access to some seemingly natural experiences. We all have our quirks...

Today, I'm thinking about how society and different organizations charge money for some experiences that we can all have access to for free. A couple of years ago, I took my daughters to the Natural History Museum to see various types of butterflies inside their seasonal butterfly exhibit. Our visit for my little family of three costed nearly $20.

The pricing at the museum was fair for the experience. It's quite unlikely that many of us will be in an environment where there are so many different butterfly species around at one given time. I just think many of us forget that we too, can create renditions of a natural atmosphere...

See (above) how my GODnephew created a natural-like environment for the caterpillar.

See (above) how my GODsister created a natural-like atmosphere for "Butterfree."

We Love. The Park.

Mom

  
                                       Big Girl                                                      Baby Girl

Family. Food. Fun. 

A Full. Week.

I am eating the right food. Not only what's edible. I am feeding my spiritual appetite with proper nutrition.

Purr. Perfection!

Made in HEAVEN!!!