Tell All. Tuesday.

Truthfully, I am at a lost for words at "this" present moment. I've been sitting here staring at the screen, looking up at the ceiling, and daydreaming about nothing specific. Scratching my head...

What will I write about today?

Not a "thing."

Monday: Personal Management.

I've been in a Spring-cleaning kind of mood all day. How very busy my day has been at home. My organizational productivity actually began over the weekend...

I decided yesterday (finally), that it was time to clear out my youngest daughters play area. We didn't quite complete the process of elimination with her old toys before Christmas. She even had a few toys which were still unopened from this past Christmas and her birthday last week.

So together, we sorted through the "old" and the "new" items. Some "things" were obviously trash and others she has outgrown. I packed a bag of toys to donate to our church. My bff banned me from bringing anymore donations to their home. She says their home is overflowing with enough old and new "things."

Today, I've been clearing and organizing closets. I started with the hallway closet and finished with the kitchen closet. Our living room is almost fully organized (according to my own perfectionist ways)!

"I can" actually rest now, but I still have the energy "to do" something else. I love "this" rhythm I'm in...

Without resistance, I am motivated to prepare accordingly for the task at hand.

Nothing Beats. Good Rest.

Now that winter break is over and my children are back in school I have day time hours "to do" as I please. Since I haven't been working out at all lately, my energy level has been quite low. Or maybe my body is just trying to cash in on lost hours of sleep...

The last time I remember being able to take a nap during the weekday(s) was when my youngest was still an infant. When I transferred to CSUDH in Fall of 2008, I maintained a full-time class schedule until I graduated in Spring of 2011. I made it through some tired days, while only being able to imagine taking a nap when I really needed the rest.

I am capitalizing on getting my rest these days. Having the opportunity "to do" so is such a luxury and I'm fully aware of "this." I don't know exactly how long I'll be able to get away with "this." Loving it now!

Sure, it would help my energy level if I went to bed shortly after my children at least. I'm working on it. I will admit, that my night owl tendency has been contributing to my lack of proper rest during normal sleeping hours. As stated, I'm working on it...

So, I just awoke from a great nap. Actually, I could've stayed asleep until morning, but my blog was calling. I'm so glad it's Friday. My mind can rest, while fresh thoughts are gathered as I welcome and enjoy the weekend.

TGIF!!!

Mind. Your Matter.

It was about "this" time last year when I almost gave up on moving because I wasn't approved to move into a 1-bedroom apartment that I had my hopes set on. Truth is, I really didn't want "that" apartment, but I could imagine my little family living there. I was somewhat in a desperate state and probably would've moved into any place larger than where we were living at the time.

I'm so glad GOD knows best and made a way for us otherwise. After driving by and seeing the "For Rent" sign in the window of what's now my bedroom for more than 2-months, I finally pulled over one day (today's date if I'm not mistaken) to jot the telephone number down. I just wanted to see it. I had to for some reason "that" day.

My children and I wanted the place immediately upon first sight of the living room. Mentally, I fell into a fantasy type state and decided, that I had nothing to lose applying for the rental. I said a little prayer and geared into immediate action.

I returned the application the following day after viewing the apartment along with a letter. Personally, I knew that my credit report would return shabby results. What I didn't know, was how compassionate my landlord would be. I thought, that a personal statement about my circumstances and future goals could be helpful.

The letter sealed the deal! I formatted my statement like a cover letter, which included honest details about my character, my experience, and a strong desire to be given the opportunity to prove myself. Needing to say: My landlord took a chance on me per my request. Was it really "that" simple? In my case: Yes.

All I had to do was ask. I've heard "it" more times than I can remember (spiritual advisement); "ask and it shall be given." FAITH!!! No. I don't have that scripture memorized. A Bible quote I'm sure of though...

I'm just reflecting on how GREAT GOD IS today and everyday!!! 

One Week Later...

"I can" now laugh at myself for the "funk," that I allowed myself to temporarily/unnecessarily dwell in. Last week was the most difficult week I've experienced trying to maintain my blog. Why do I feel like I've made this statement before? Laughing quietly!

I made it through the week regardless. Of course, I knew that I would, but in the midst of "it" -it felt like I was on a rough ride going down the wrong road, that I couldn't seem to free myself from. Needing to say: I was going through "it."

Through what? Asking myself that aloud. Shaking my head. I feel so much better now!

Thank you LORD!!! 

I know not to fret. When "I do" I lose focus. I know better.

!!!WEDNESDAY!!!

Something Briefly. Stated.

I am still recovering from a busy weekend and day (yesterday). Last week, I was physically/mentally/emotionally exhausted simultaneously. It felt like a battle getting through it, but by Friday the stress of "it" all began to subside.

Boredom is attempting to bother my emotional well-being. I say bother because just recently, I've been thinking about doing "something" for personal entertainment. Something like exploring a dating/social website other than Facebook. What do I have to lose/gain?

To lose; time. To gain; who knows?

Meeting/Interacting with new people on a website is not my usual way of making acquaintances and socializing. I'm not so sure about dating just yet, but I wouldn't mind conversing with a few folks. The Internet makes connecting with people easy, but shouldn't I be careful?

Absolutely!

I have to consider what my prompts are. It's usually during the "wee-hours" that I'm tempted to seriously register onto one of these websites. It appears fun when I see others online engaged in social activities with people. Is it  for me though? I don't think so.

There IS so much to be accomplished manually, that I have no business allowing boredom to lead me. Especially not now, while I'm eliminating/prioritizing/reorganizing "things" in my life. I'm paying cautious attention to what influences my actions.

My focus; inward. My FAITH; in GOD. My plan; HIS. 

My 2nd. Time Around.

My youngest daughter turns 6-years old today. "I can" believe it. We've come a long way since her conception.

I remember being in denial for almost the entire first trimester. Pregnant people shouldn't drink red bull. I did, nearly daily for 5 1/2 months. Why?

I needed energy, duh. :P

If only I could drain some of the energy my "wild child" has. She wears us out. All of us! This includes everyone that she spends atleast half of a day with. Very fun, cute, loving and enthusiastic about everything, but also very difficult to keep quiet, relaxed or still. My little hyper-princess just can't help herself. Mommy gets "it."

Oh how she excels academically and socially. I realize with my youngest, that I have to keep her positively stimulated. If I don't then her curiosity and anxiousness gets the best of all of us. She has an independent can/will do type of personality. A child with so much potential for success in all "things." Let's just say, she keeps me on my toes at all times!

I don't ever want her to lose her excited spirit towards life. I'm allowing her to be as she IS, but with careful and patient guidance. My baby girl will soon be standing taller than me just like her big sister does.

It IS a happy 6th birthday for my daughter. She's wearing it well. I'm such a proud mother. Yes, indeed.

Media Rumors. Why Buy?

I've been web surfing this morning on various news websites and the top headlines are about the passing of singer, Etta James, and Kobe and Vanessa Bryant's divorce property settlement. Another worthy mention; Beyonce' and Jay-Z's newborn. Of these top stories, I have more interest in reading about Etta James.

I'm familiar with her music and I learned more about James from the movie, "Cadillac Records." I can't say that I've taken the time to conduct proper research about her, but her death is newsworthy because she did contribute greatly to the music industry and her song, "At Last" will always be a classic stretching beyond generations. Living 73-years is not bad at all and what a full life she lived.

Kobe and Vanessa's story may be shocking to many, but who really cares about how much she's been awarded from the settlement? Maybe Kobe does. Not only has his "happy family man" image been broken long ago with the scandal he was part of in 2003, but his daughters now have the potential opportunity to have a second dad (stepfather) if Vanessa remarries.

What about Vanessa? She's been living a life of luxury as his wife for more than 10-years. I don't believe it's about the money at all contrary to others beliefs. It's interesting to hear all the hoopla labeling her as a smart gold-digger who knew what she was doing by staying with her husband after the sexual assault controversy. Some people just can't understand why she endured 7-plus more years of being married while Kobe continued to cheat.

It's really not for any of us to know. I'm sure she weighed the pros and cons about her ultimate decision long before putting it into action. As a mother, I'm also pretty sure she came to the conclusion, that she wants to be the best example of a dignified woman for her daughters. I'll bet she considered the "media circus" that's happening now. Isn't it apparent that she's taking a stand for herself?

Two possible considerations by Vanessa...
1) Having to explain to her daughters (in their adulthood) why she stayed in an unfaithful marriage.
2) Having FAITH that life can be more fulfilling by demonstrating her self-respect and personal confidence to Kobe by divorcing him.

Now, about "Blue Ivy Carter." It's sad for celebrities that reach such a high level of fame because from the the perception of the public, nearly everything these famous people do is measured as a performance of some sort. As if they can't do normal "things" like the general public. Are we fans to blame for holding our favorite celebrities to irrational standards offstage or is "it" the fault of the mass media for portraying itself as the visual/auditory truth of all "things" recorded/broadcasted?

I believe that Beyonce did give birth to a baby girl. I wont allow anyone I know to fall prey to the (well-known) negative media attention that haunted Michael Jackson. Yes, he had obvious issues, but don't we all? Aside from what we saw with our own eyes and heard with our own ears about Michael, we were fed information that most of us will never verify through proper research. Beyonce' and Jay Z know the truth to their story so it doesn't really matter what we think.

We can not believe in everything that we see and hear rooted by the mass media. If we are sincere with our interests/concerns about anyone/anything (famous or not) we ought to be willing to do the research and discover the facts before possibly spreading faulty information. Lies don't last forever, but the effects of a lie can be everlasting.

Seek the truth, then tell and shame the enemy! 

Okay... Okay.

My goodness this week has been tough. Only because of my mindset. I've been over thinking and on the brink of worrying about my financial circumstances. I don't always have the greatest grip on my mental state.

Before I can discuss interesting matters that I personally have nothing to do with, I'll need to get my mind right. I'm not really satisfied with my blog topics that I've written about this week with the exception of Monday's post. Bare with me as I bare with myself.

What's most important to me is that I remain consistent, which I have. I've been touching down here regardless how difficult it's been for me doing so. I don't like to admit it, but I do have problems with commitment.

I'm really trying to improve in this area. It's been quite challenging staying committed to anything beyond 1-year. This doesn't include my natural obligations as a parent and adult. I realize that I've been neglecting establishing a fulfilling career and almost completely ignoring, that I do want to share an intimate lifelong relationship with the right person. I've got to get right first though.

Usually, I bounce back to my usual independent self quickly. "This" feeling of disappointment has been lingering all week and bothering me more than I'm used to. Time to regroup. Immediately!

I will mention, that I'm happy to have "this" place to analyze and evaluate my thoughts. It's awesome being able to access what I've written based upon how I've been feeling over the past 3-months. For each blog that I've reread, I know exactly where I was, what led me to type what I did, and all that I was thinking about beforehand.

I am positively affected by my blog. Why would I allow a "bad" day or week detour me from my predestined path? Can not and will not. I'm remembering to encourage myself. Moving forward consistently!  


GOD HAS ME!!!

Wow. Wednesday...

Okay, I'm in a bit of a slump. I am struggling for words and I just can't seem to narrow my thoughts at this moment. I almost excused myself today. From blogging. No way! 

I had so many "things" that I thought about over the weekend. I'm still thinking about too many "things" actually. Break time needed.

Wednesday IS my favorite day of the week and I should do as I please, right? Yes, however, in an honest attempt to remain personally pleased about my blog I must stay true to "its" form. For me, presently, that means by all means: I AM DOING THIS!!! Period.

Whatever "this" IS...

 

I'll Try. Again...

I told myself last night, that I wouldn't allow "this" to happen again...

Shucks! What am I to do besides putting forth a better effort next time? Moving right along.

Sometimes, I just know. I just know that "things" will get better and they usually do. So I don't give up. Take breaks? Absolutely, but somehow, I find my way back to deal with unfinished business.

As long as I'm breathing and willing, with and through GOD "I can" do all "things." I don't lose sight of "this" awareness, but I do get distracted. I haven't quite learned how to properly shift my focus.

I am a work in progress. Knowing "this" makes it easy to push forward no matter what. Even when I feel like I'm slacking...

So I will attempt to gather my thoughts earlier within the day as soon as possible. I didn't ever want to watch the time as I type my blog, but I suppose it's teaching me some discipline. "I can" use a heavy dose of self-discipline in several areas of my life. No doubt.

Working on "it:" Yes I am!

I May. Be Nosey.

We had a great time at the Martin Luther King Jr. Day Parade today. My cousin joined us and we found a great viewing spot at the corner of King/Crenshaw where we stayed until "it" was over. I was surprised that no one complained when we excused ourselves through the crowd to claim our positions.

I've had some unpleasant experiences with "citizen street police" at the MLK Parade in past years. The encounters were with adults sitting in their lawn chairs (on public property) not wanting anyone to come into their area. Can my children respectably get to a space on the curbside where they can see too? Which can't be too far away from me. So excuse us please.

It's crazy how people are so anxious to see what's coming when they know, that eventually "it" will take place right before them. I witnessed what I, thought was about to turn into a physical altercation between two adult (late 30s) women right next to us on the same corner. Call it nosey or observant, but I had noticed the instigator of "this" incident well before "it" occurred.

Reason being, she caught my attention when she loudly told someone (her family) to get out of her chair. She fussed and frowned for a little while after sitting down. In my mind, without even knowing her or having one direct interaction with "this" woman, I labeled her as a complainer when I looked at her.

The other woman involved in the argument had excused her way through where we were standing to meet up with her family a short while after we arrived. She actually stopped in front of my cousin for a few minutes before she turned around and asked was she blocking our view. My cousin politely responded "yes" and the woman tried to move out the way. When she did, she blocked someone else's view...

Here is where the drama began. Remember the instigator I mentioned above? It was bothering her the most, which she made very clear with her rants and complaints. She even had the audacity to step into the other woman's face with the nonsense. The other woman almost snapped. It was sad to see them behave "this" way in front of everyone (kids as well), especially on Martin Luther King Jr.'s holiday.

Someone from each of their families calmed both of the women down. The crowd around reminded them about what today means: That we cannot overcome anything with violence. They both apologized and hugged one another. Several people clapped and cheered for the ladies as did I. "This" became the highlight of the parade for the area that we were in. Surely, a treat to see!

I obviously was not the only nosey one...

My Turn. To Do.

My beautiful GODchildren are spending this weekend with us. I feel like "big mama" watching my 5 girls. They're all so cute and sweet, that it's really no chore.

I plan to step-up and help more where "I can." Especially, by assisting my immediate family and inner circle of friends when/where "I can." They're here for me during my times of need. I just feel, that if I'm able "to do" what "I can" I ought to show a stronger initiative of support for my loved ones.

I forget how overwhelming "it" can be not having adult time alone. Somehow, I manage to get a fair dose in for myself. My best-friend usually only gets "this" kind of time when she's on her way to work or if her mother-n-law takes the children for a while. So unfair for me to feel like she should be able to work out some alone time on her own because my GODdaughters are products of a two-parent household. How can I figure that parenting is any easier for them? I have no right assuming so. No longer will I dare.

"I can" be a better best-friend and GODmother. I'll be demonstrating "this" over time. My GODbabies love our attention and coming to visit with us at our place. We all will be making more of the most of our loving time spent together.

It's something called LOVE!!! To share is to care. Be there and be fair.

Kids vs. Grown-up. Let's Go!

My children and I went to an indoor playground this evening. I had promised my youngest daughter earlier this week, that we'd all go to the park. Yesterday was supposed to be the day, but "it" didn't happen. I made a new deal with her for us to go to Kids Concept USA, today.

We had so much fun. This visit was about our fourth ever. My daughter had her 5th birthday party at the place, which I will say was a hit. I only mention "this" because I was complaining about the price of the party beforehand. After enjoying a new birthday party experience and seeing how happy all the children were (adults too), I later felt, that "it" was worth the value.

If I'm not mistaken, today was our first time back since my daughter's party. Her next birthday is 10-days from tomorrow. Wow!

I needed to get out and play today too. I will admit, that I wasn't looking too forward to it because "this" week I've been feeling very fatigued. My participation at the indoor playground was without question, mandatory.

We girls "can" get/be very competitive. We did/were too! Our ball fight was the most fun. At least, in my opinion... I gave "it" to them, but they also gave "it" to me! Big girls don't cry when they play right.

Play hard or what? Go home! We stayed until closing.

Wednesday Willpower!

I haven't had the kind of energy that I'd like this week...

Although, I'm still getting by and making small moves regardless. I didn't have any set plans today, aside from waiting for my landlord to come fix the clogged sinks. He left some draining solution for me to pour into the sinks this morning, which I did. It needed to set-in for a few hours before we could determine if "that" was enough to clear the drains.

I decided that I would treat myself to breakfast, then take care of some business for the day. Vehicle smog-check passed and the registration is paid. Thank goodness for AAA Services. I managed to do these "things" before my daughters school let out.

When I returned home from taking my children to school this morning I thought about going back to sleep. Just because I could've if I really wanted to. If there's any day that I'd allow myself extra lenience with anything, it'd (more than likely) be a Wednesday.

I did take a nap this evening. It felt great. I smiled at all that was accomplished today when I awoke. My own doing (getting up & going). My children's (homework). The landlord (sinks fixed). Today was another "Wonderful Wednesday." I'm so very thankful for "it!"

Why? Make Sense.

Okay, both sinks; the bathroom and now, the kitchen are clogged. "This" has forced me to call for help. I had no idea that my landlord was on the premises when I was leaving this afternoon to pick my daughters up from school. I told him about the problem and I think we both knew at that moment, that tomorrow might be a better day to deal with the issue.

The bathroom sink has been out of commission for over one week now. I've stopped using it all together and I told my daughters not to use it as well. So, yes ridiculously, we've been washing our hands in the bathtub after using the toilet. Our guests have also been subject to this inconvenience. Why?

Inexcusable. Period.

I know. "Something" so small may now be a bigger plumbing problem because I decided to handle "this" my way by putting "it" off until I felt like dealing with it. I couldn't fix "it" myself, but I chose to ignore it (for a short while); unnecessarily.

So now, no dishes will get washed tonight. We're on a hope and prayer that the toilet and bathtub doesn't back up before the plumber gets here tomorrow. Tomorrow is now dedicated to waiting on the plumber. Shaking my head... I will. I will try harder not to be "this" silly in the future.

I wish I had dealt with "this" already before reaching "this" point!


:/ :/ :/ 




***Note taken to self.

Made Mine. A Holiday.

I didn't have my usual energy today. Not in an unpleasant mood, simply tired. One would think that I was out partying all weekend or physically "under the weather." Guilty of neither.

My children returned to school today. After being home from school for more than 3-weeks (remember they were home ill that last week before the winter break began) I was more than excited about today. They enjoyed their time with their fathers and I did my best to make the most of our leisure time at home together during.

Today is the first day of my "new professional" year. I am seriously attempting to prove to myself, that no one has to tell me what to do in order to establish a credible career. With the very same efforts provided to former employers and along with more ambition, I am giving "it" a go!

Week one of "this" gig requires me to have a sound mind: Freeing myself of mental strain and exterior pressures. The next order of business will be for me to maintain "this" sense of being, while adding "something" additional on a weekly basis. I needed to treat today like a holiday. Simply because I wanted to. My children's routine is back to usual and "I can" think a little more about what I want/need "to do" with my individual time. Yes.

Rest. Reason. Relaxation.

Yes LORD!!! I'm Enlightened.

Let me first give up a WOW! I've had a busy week and when it first began I wasn't sure what position I'd be in today. I am BLESSED. Have always been, but I'm coming out of a storm and I almost forgot how bright the sun IS.

Sometimes it's difficult to see the light shining through...

Everything that I hoped would take place this week has and beyond. I was hopeful that I'd be able to keep my word and pay my landlord this week. I prayed that I'd be able to pay the bills that I made payment arrangements for, which had due dates for today. GOD made me able!

I'm working with a lot more information to plan with now. I no longer feel like I'll make the hasty decision "that" I was thinking about. I didn't allow myself to fret and I'm not even concerned whether I will.

There's a creative force moving my actions. I'm letting "it" be. Motivation is present and so is my willpower "to do." I feel like a rekindled fire burning through all the madness.

I am really ready. I have dreams, but I recognize and accept, that they wont be accomplished my way. I can gladly say THANK GOD for "that."

Nothing is too difficult when being led by the DIRECTOR of LIFE and the TRUE LEADER of this world!!! 


LORD lead my path in the direction which you've destined me to go. I will not fight instruction. I will not be guided or misled by false news or images. Allow me to use my gifts and understanding to be a better messenger/communicator, listener/speaker, student/teacher, and any/every role that you authorize me to "stand-in."

AMEN

Well? Well.

My children and I handled some business today. We were blessed to receive "something" our household needs and has been hoping for. I now have the means to pay some bills. Yes LORD!!!

Well. :)

We went to visit an old friend of mine and her children. The very same friend that I "cut-off" a little over a month ago. If I'm not mistaken I said, "I no longer desire to share a history with her." Something similar if not my exact words. Hmm... So much to say "sometimes."

Well? :/

It was so GREAT seeing them today! We all LOVE each other. That's a fact. I guess we can't all always get along nor will we all always agree about everything...

I'm grateful for being able to move on and get over "it." My youngest daughter was annoying me these past few weeks by continuing to ask when was I going to apologize to my friend. Well, I did. We discussed "it" and agreed that I'll remain blocked from her FB page. I can live with "that" and I don't LOVE her any less.

Well. ;)

Welcomed. Wednesday!

This morning I sat at the computer and thought about blogging. I kept thinking, "I haven't gone through anything (yet) today. It's kind of funny that I had that thought because I initially began blogging in the morning. I found "something" to say then...

I decided I'd get to it later so here I am. Guess what? I still haven't "gone through anything." 

Okay, I did get frustrated for a very short period earlier today when my youngest locked us all out of the bathroom. I tried to get in with a butter knife, but resorted to taking the screws off of the door knob to get in. In the end, I felt proud of my efforts and it wasn't the biggest deal. 

It's interesting how easily I overcame very few obstacles today (something about Wednesdays). I believe I'm beginning to understand what "it" is. I'll bet that I experienced "something" GREAT on a Wednesday some time ago and decided then, that I will always LOVE Wednesdays! 

Since then, miraculously, my perception of "things" on Wednesdays is usually very pleasant. More often than not. Now if I can just hold onto "something" GREAT for every other day of the week: I'll have a completely renewed attitude!

We "can" use our powerful minds in positive ways! ;)

It's Time. Let's Roll.

A dear friend of mine came to assist me today. I asked for his help last week and he gladly obliged. Real friends are great and there when needed.

I was concerned that I might be asking for too much, but I asked anyway. He even followed up with me assuring his availability for today. How great is that? Awesome.

The way he goes about his daily duties is professional and serious. If he says he'll do something, he will. I remember when we were attending Pasadena City College (PCC) how clean and crisp his appearance was when he was in class. I used to think to myself, "we're just at school man, why so dapper?" Laughing out loud...

Perhaps, his "presentation of self" then is the very reason why he's attracted some career opportunities. Since our days at PCC together, he's established his own business and is actively working in the field of video production. I find it pretty amazing that I stayed and graduated from PCC and am still seeking career opportunities when he simply believed in himself, left school and got busy.

Seriously busy. He now has a portfolio of hands-on experience and a small network of industry professionals. His work has been recommended by previous clients and he's now ready to take his business to the next level.

I can help. I don't think I realized how much I can help until our discussion today. He has the product/service and skilled experience. I have institutional knowledge and extensive customer service skills. We have some incredible trading opportunities on the table.

Because we're friends, we sincerely want to help one another. I've known for a while now, that I haven't been putting my talents/skills to full use. I'm really ready now. Especially having a friend like Jody Jackson in my life as an example.

Jackson Video Productions

He knew exactly why he went to PCC. When he got what he needed, he put "it" to good use. Immediately. He took some chances, had some falls, but the fact remains today: He's still standing and gradually climbing the "ladder of success" in the direction, that he wants to go!

I see why I've been moving in circles and not straight forward. I've been a punk and I don't mean rock & roll. Fear of the unknown has handicapped me. There's been way too much, that I haven't even tried. I can ONLY THANK GOD that I am not permanently disabled by "fear of the unknown."

It's time world. Let's roll!

"Happy Thank You. More Please."

I saw a really great movie during the wee-hours this morning. I'm not a big moviegoer nor do I watch much  television so the story line has to be intriguing enough to keep my attention. When the movie began I wasn't sure if I really wanted to watch it, but I never changed the channel.

This movie delivered a meaningful message about LOVE. It demonstrated some of the different ways, that LOVE presents itself, how it's identified, reciprocated, what "it" looks like, and so on. What I appreciated most is how the characters were positioned in scenarios where they could easily be judged as  irrational/irresponsible adults, based upon the choices they made under abnormal circumstances. 

How am I able to relate? 

I believe, that LOVE "can" seem crazy. I believe, that we sometimes try to rationalize our experiences/encounters to the best of our abilities and sometimes completely ignore what we honestly feel. Josh Radnor, the director and writer of "Happythankyoumoreplease" did an excellent job showcasing "this" reality. (Click title for movie details)

Being open-minded about LOVE and sharing a willingness to exercise responsibility with it is what makes it everlasting. 

The above statement is why I'm still single. I haven't been very open-minded about LOVE (although this IS changing). I've chosen adventures with some very irresponsible men and in some situations, I was the one who behaved immaturely.

I'm just now reaching a point where I "can" admit to someone, that "I'm happy. Thank you. More Please." I truly also believe, that open communication about personal feelings, desires and concerns, is necessary for any relationship to thrive.

We are accountable for our actions and more so, in/with the act/expression of LOVE.